So many times I believe I “arrived”, I am in a better place. I can meditate and be at peace so beautifully, life is wonderful, everything is just amazing! My life, my job, my family, my friends, everything. and then something happens, anything really it doesn’t have to be a “big deal” just something that reminds me of something else or it rubs me the wrong way or who knows what! And BAM I am right back where I started. I feel like I have written a million times about this and it still surprises me every time! Sometimes it is just a small mistep and others I just fall flat face on the floor. It gets a lot worse when I start asking “What happened?” “What did I do wrong?” “How come I am back in the same place?”. That just creates an insane reaction that sometimes last a second and others what seems a lifetime! The truth is, I am in a different place, it is not the same as it was before, everytime it seems to be something different maybe related to the same thing but not really the same. It is a reminder that nothing is permanent, everything changes … it is just a reminder …